i feel like crying, but here, thats almost as bad as dying. the pain and suffering. i feel it all the time. when i walk through the door. the hurt. the pain. isnt it all the same?

so give me a reason why i shouldnt do something stupid tonight? theres no use in trying to put up a fight. i dont even care anymore. its 11:45 at night. why try to deny it? i kissed someone tonight and i liked it. maybe this is MY rebel love song...

are poems meant to rhyme? was there ever a time where they didn't? what if those moments were hidden? did anyone ever stop to think that maybe things were never that neat? I'm writing a poem. it doesn't need to rhyme. I'm only writing it to pass the time...

as my pen hits the paper darkness spills onto the page. im scared to go home. i barely even know the way. do you know the time or the day? i look up and all i see are clouds of grey. for miles wide. i need to know the time. get back to you. i can almost hear you whine. 'Where are you? Are you close?' im suffocating in this darkness. i might begin to overdose. i had no idea what this was about... but now i see. when is the next time i will see you? will you be with me? with my sister? they say three's a crowd, but it doesn't feel like it with your company.

dedicated to my oldest sister who is... god knows where...

... i break through the walls that shield the sounds of my cries... to let people know that im not the one who lies. im not the one who goes around and... tries, to hide, the truth from the inocent peoples eyes. i know the truth. and its enough to break the ties... with the people. nobody can help... the lies are going around like little flies. can you see the lies? or are you one of the flies? going around. spreading despair. like nobody cares. would you dare? do you find that fair?

when friendships end

when friendships end its kinda weird because you know all this information about someone, but yet, you guys arent even talking and like, nobody else knows half the stuff that you know. its kinda frustrating.

cigarettes affect your health because they damage your lungs. alcohol rots the brain and other parts of the body. weed messes with your brain also. it kills your brain cells.

now, i know that most people find these things damaging, but the people who smoke cigarettes, weed, and drink alcohol, find these things helpful in relaxing them and getting them through life. its their little boost. now, i know they probably wont learn better until something tragic happens, but, at least they have some sense left and their own mentality isn't unraveling like it would if they didn't do those things. those people know the consequences, but frankly, they just don't care. at least their HAPPY.