poem inspired by a song my teacher had people listen to in class

i let the rain wash away all the feelings inside. ive got nothing to hide, out of sight out of mind. the day you left my hands went numb, my heart felt cold, i could've sworn i was deaf. im not deaf. i can hear the difference in my veins. the blood flowing through me doesnt make a sound anymore. the SWOOSH. SWOOSH that i heard when you were here is gone. i doubt if you come back it will ever return. somethings changed inside me. something that can never be fixed. but i guess thats okay. with that, i was being held back anyways. i doubt you'd understand, but then again how could you? i was a dark grey and you were always so cold and blue. id have killed you f i could. drank your blood and made it a part of me. so i can feel you all the time. even when i pee >_>

but enough of the crap, lets get through this together. whenever the day, it'd be better than never. i can hear the rain out my window. coming closer and closer. where did you go? will you tell me when this is over?

Do you believe in love at first sight?

i actually don't >_>

i mean, i just cant anymore. I've witnessed a bunch of relationships falling apart and i don't think that anyone truly finds that 'one' person. i mean, the fact that there's just so much hope in one little myth, its a bit crazy isn't it? i think that people, they're not always completely happy in their relationships. there's always those 1 or 2 faults. but then again, nobodys perfect right? couldn't that be the beauty of love? even loving all of their little mistakes? no, i don't believe in love at first sight. but i do believe that over time, you can fall in love with anyone, given the right reasons. and that any relationships are a thing of beauty. even the ones that are like a battle field. those, well, in the midst of a war zone, there is always that one little flower that was never destroyed. you cant fall in love with someone at first sight. you can have a crush on their personality or like them so much you think its love, but in reality, no love begins with a glance. only a single relationship can be started. and then the rest is for the 2 people to decide.

what qualities do you look for when choosing your friends?

when i have friends, theres really no specific quality that i look for in them. just the simple fact that i know that they'll be there for me is enough. i know some people that have recently proven themselves not true friends, but thats okay, i mean, you cant always expect everyone to be there for you.

i LOVE my friends

i LOVE my friends because they're freakin awesome and they accept my weirdness and like they're all weird in their own way. we all have different personalities but like, our friendship works and its awesome :D like, yeah we do thing to get each other mad but it usually works out in the end. its just, we MAKE our friendship work. and it does. i dont think ill ever stop talking to them or lose contact with them. for me, its just impossible to think about life without them. <3 here are 3 of my friends, because i wasnt able to take a picture with 3 of them...

1. What are some things you learned about the materials (e.g., glass, concrete, steel) used for re-building ground zero.

they are using cement that wasnt even invented yet. they are using newly formed cement, that they call liquid steel, that can handle the crash of an airplane and more. a four inch block of cement that they showed, can handle up to 1000 pounds.

2. What were some of the challenges that the builders faced when creating the new WTC building and memorial fountains?

they wanted to create something that would be beautiful, but also, extremely stronger than the first building.

3. What does the design of the WTC symbolize? What does the design of the memorial fountains symbolize?

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4. How will this video affect your memorial design?

the video will make me think more about what i wanted to do, like, im not so sure i want to do that one anymore lol. like, the memorial was beautiful, something eye catching, ya know? i dont think anyone can compete with that but, im pretty sure im gonna try to make my design better than what was my first design that i had in mind.

1. Describe what your favorite design looked like?
my favorite design was the only memorial that had a heart in it. it was a broken heart and i liked it because to me, one side symbolized the ones that we have lost and the ones that are still alive and are saddened and heart broken by the family members and friends that had to leave us on that devastating day.

2. How were the designs different, how were they the same?
they were different because they were all unique and some we really interesting and some seemed as if they had more meaning, but i know that they were the same because all of them had alot of meaning and work put into them.

3. If you could create a memorial for 9/11 what would it look like?
it would have both of the twin towers, with people surrounding them, holding hands in the shape of a heart and they were on top of the world. i wouldn't put an airplane because i think that it is way too soon for something like that.

Dear fans of my blog,

First off, I want to tell you what a boring summer I had. Not only did I sleep , but I also ate. One thing that I didn’t do (but wish I had) was go to mars the restaurant. It feels so weird to be at school because made plenty of enemies during the summer.

Anyhow, I just watched a Men in Black video clip and it was really... amusing. I couldn't’t believe that Will Smith was so retarded. lol Looking at Mr. Lahana’s “MOST IMPORTANT THINGS” list it’s pretty clear this video was talking about umm not acting retarded where you are a guest? This is because everyone was looking at will smith like he was crazy.

On #4 of Mr. Lahana’s “MOST IMPORTANT THINGS” list he talks about finding what you love. Besides texting, Facebooking, and drooling over my favorite band falling in reverse because Ronnie radke is extremely cute, I’m into some serious stuff. Stuff that not everyone’s into– like writing books, and reading. It’s true! I could spend hours writing or reading and time just vanishes. If you gave me access to a computer with a camera, Garageband, Scratch, Photoshop or 3D design software I would make a song that showed off my talent at writing. But you know, I’m not perfect at my talent yet. By the end of the year I hope I can write amazing songs that i dont crumple up later. Well, that’s all I have time to write for now– biieeezzzz!!!!!!